One thing I never knew
is that I never needed you…
and, I kept that bottled up inside
The other thing I never knew
is that I never loved you…
I'm not even sorry that I lied
When I said you're everything
everything I'd ever need
Oh, you put up quite a fight
Remember when I said you're everything?
everything I'd ever need…
no, you're just another poem to write
For a time I let you touch
the scars I know you need so much
But, I was just filling in that hole
Because when I let you touch
those scars you know I need so much
I thought you also had a soul
Friday, November 30, 2012
Sunday, April 22, 2012
lunging
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dreams have begun to connect
threads and themes that run through
from one night to another
between weeks and days
beautiful faces that influence my waking life
rather that the reverse
horrible events that affect me
more than the visible cuts in my skin
longing and lunging for sleep
from one dream to another
between weeks and days
lovers I cannot contact
whom hurt and heal
villains I cannot fight
whom taunt and torture
come back to me
into my head
come back into my life
into my reality
come back into my bed
into my sleep
tonight
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dreams have begun to connect
threads and themes that run through
from one night to another
between weeks and days
beautiful faces that influence my waking life
rather that the reverse
horrible events that affect me
more than the visible cuts in my skin
longing and lunging for sleep
from one dream to another
between weeks and days
lovers I cannot contact
whom hurt and heal
villains I cannot fight
whom taunt and torture
come back to me
into my head
come back into my life
into my reality
come back into my bed
into my sleep
tonight
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Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Drip
Just now
Just now, I walked out into the office
And I made them laugh
And I smiled
And I laughed
And they smiled
and they laughed
And when I couldn't take
Any more
I ran to the bathroom
I turned on the light
I looked into the mirror
I watched my smile drip off of my face
And into the sink
And down the drain
Where it belongs
Just now, I walked out into the office
And I made them laugh
And I smiled
And I laughed
And they smiled
and they laughed
And when I couldn't take
Any more
I ran to the bathroom
I turned on the light
I looked into the mirror
I watched my smile drip off of my face
And into the sink
And down the drain
Where it belongs
Friday, March 16, 2012
Nigger
For 2 years I was his friend
He was mine
We talked of pain and happiness
I knew his mom's name, and the way his brother died
He knew that I was invited to a
Birthday party just to be pissed upon
He knew I had OD'd when I was in high school
I knew that I was his first white friend
One day I asked why his friends called him
"nigger"
But I could not?
He said... You "can" call me "nigger."
But it will change everything
I called him "nigger"
And I loved him, but I didn't understand.
And neither did he.
I miss him.
He was mine
We talked of pain and happiness
I knew his mom's name, and the way his brother died
He knew that I was invited to a
Birthday party just to be pissed upon
He knew I had OD'd when I was in high school
I knew that I was his first white friend
One day I asked why his friends called him
"nigger"
But I could not?
He said... You "can" call me "nigger."
But it will change everything
I called him "nigger"
And I loved him, but I didn't understand.
And neither did he.
I miss him.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
What I do Best
The thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
Is just lean against her forehead and look into her eyes.
The thing I do best.
Is try and get my lips as close to hers as possible without kissing.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
Is to place my hand on the small of her back as we walk.
The thing I do best.
Is to let her know... that hand is the strongest and most gentle hand.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
Is to put my thumb in her mouth as we kiss.
The thing I do best.
Is to never forget the taste of her mouth and her tongue.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
The thing I do best...
Is to love her like no man has loved.
The thing I do best.
Is to write it in words, that I know, she never has heard.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
But what is it that TRULY I do best?
HA!
The thing I do BEST.... is to push her away...
and let other men give her their best.
The thing I do best.
Is just lean against her forehead and look into her eyes.
The thing I do best.
Is try and get my lips as close to hers as possible without kissing.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
Is to place my hand on the small of her back as we walk.
The thing I do best.
Is to let her know... that hand is the strongest and most gentle hand.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
Is to put my thumb in her mouth as we kiss.
The thing I do best.
Is to never forget the taste of her mouth and her tongue.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
The thing I do best.
The thing I do best...
Is to love her like no man has loved.
The thing I do best.
Is to write it in words, that I know, she never has heard.
Yes, yes...
THAT is the thing I do best.
But what is it that TRULY I do best?
HA!
The thing I do BEST.... is to push her away...
and let other men give her their best.
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